It's been 2 weeks since I finished the pinwheel quilt top. Most everyone else in this space would have had it quilted by now but I'm hesitant to take the next step. I did visit a local quilt shop that has a very efficient long arm quilting business within it and feel comfortable in using their services but the cost is a little more than I can afford right now.
Life is dramatically more different, even more difficult, than it was a year ago at this time. So much has changed since my husband was laid off from his job in May. It is now 2 years since I retired and I am now faced with returning to work but to what?
I have barely settled into life here in Florida but I have definitely grown accustomed to life without a job. To all of you who have fantasized about what you would if you could quit your job and devote your time to quilting I'm sure you have a very definite idea about how you would spend your time.
At first I was very efficient with my time. I didn't waste a minute of my day. I would leap happily out of bed at the crack of dawn (always thought I would sleep late when I grumpily hit that snooze button on work days) and I would breeze through the day's chores in no time flat, anxious to begin my "fun time".
Of course, for a time I had the sad task of taking care of my parent's affairs as they had recently passed away within a year of one another. I still have many loose ends to tie up regarding some of their belongings. If any of you live in your parents' home after they passed on you will know what I mean.
But as a quilter, I also inherited my mother's sewing room and vast quilting collection. In many ways, I think it would be simpler if I were just sewing from my own perspective. There are a lot of conflicting emotions. There is comfort and there is sadness and most often a lack of direction.
So what I'm doing now is bouncing around from one project to another not really focusing my full attention on anything. Yesterday I pulled out the boxes of Jinny Beyer material Mom had accumulated over the years. I hadn't looked it over since I packed it all up so it was fun to dig into it and think over the possibilites. There's a plethora of border fabrics and some pieces with quite a bit of length.
I keep going over and over in my mind, what is the best use of my time if my time is now limited from what it was? Should I find something that really turns me on or forge ahead with one of the quilts in progress and have the satisfaction of finishing something?
One thing is for sure. For the first time ever, I have a well stocked ,well set up sewing room that I can pop in and sew for a few minutes or a few hours and return to my "happy place" whenever I need to no matter how my outside life changes out of necessity. And that's a very good thing.